You choose to use me.
But more importantly than even that, You choose me.
You chose me before I even came into physical existence.
You knew me, and the plan for me, before You began to shape me into being.
You consider me Your masterpiece.
A piece made with care by the Master.
And as such, I am special to You.
A piece of Your heart, wrapped in the work of Your hands, on display for all to see.
Purposefully made, purposefully chosen, purposefully pursued & adored.
My problem receiving that truth?
By choosing my own feelings over Yours, and by accepting my word as true above Yours, I undermine my own effectiveness in Your hands.
I become the stumbling block from all You have planned for me, the one You call Your masterpiece.
When I get out of my way, humble myself and allow You to be the One whose words I take to heart, whose truth I walk out, whose love I demonstrate, others can see the masterpiece You set out for me to be.
Only when the missing piece submits to the love of the Master can i become Your intended masterpiece.
I struggle with this some days more than others, usually when things have been especially stormy and I feel off kilter.
When I forget who I really am, I set myself up to me moved by the deceiver in the board of defeat he would have me believe is all there is for me.
After a few painful blows and bouts of tears, I drop to my knees and acknowledge the truth You have always known:
I am Yours, Lord.
I declare You Lord over every area of my life.
May I become as You intended when I leave myself in Your hands,
for Your glory alone.